first, you feel disbelief.
your brain suddenly feels like it contains cotton wool
you look through your eyes but it’s like watching someone else’s life story unfold before you
you never once thought that one day it would happen to you as well.
its like a dream. no, more like a nightmare…
your hands tremble.
you are in shock.
then
it’s as if you hear the alarm clock
you suddenly wake up
you grasp the situation
you know you have to pull yourself together!
it’s not the end yet! you have not lost!
you repeatedly remind yourself not to give up.
you turn your depression into strength.
you accept this as your next challenge.
but things dont go as smoothly as you had wanted
you never expected it to be so difficult to keep faith
you cant stop replaying the scenes in your head
but you cannot comprehend where you went wrong
you are angry
yet you want to cry
you demand to know why this is happening to you
you have been disappointed too many times.
you are turning desperate.
now
all you can think about is what you should have done then to make it better
but there is no room for regret
you can only be resigned to what the future has in store for you
well, at least you tried your best.
