irreversible

から自分の国のコトを聞くとなぜかキュンと来ちゃう。

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another year has come and gone, and i have not managed to ruin my life yet. i hope you feel as pleasantly surprised as i do. Happy New Year!
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“Here sits thy husband, in his old accustomed chamber [he wrote], where he used to sit in years gone by, before his soul became acquainted with thine. Here I have written many tales – many that have been burned to ashes- many that doubtless deserved the same fate. This deserves to be called a haunted chamber; for thousands upon thousands of visions have appeared to me in it; and some few of them have become visible to the world.

If even I should have a biographer, he ought to make great mention of this chamber in my memoirs, because so much of my lonely youth was wasted here, and here my mind and character were formed; and here I have been glad and hopeful, and here I have been despondent; and here I sat a long, long time, waiting patiently for the world to know me, and sometimes wondering why it did not know me sooner, or whether it would ever know me at all- at least, till I were in my grave. And sometimes (for I had no wife then to keep my heart warm) it seemed as if I were already in the grave, with only life enough to be chilled and benumbed.

But oftener I was happy- at least, as happy as I then knew how to be, or was aware of the possibility of being. By and bye, the world found me out in my lonely chamber, and called me forth- not, indeed, with a loud roar of acclamation, but rather with a still, small voice; and to my old solitude, till at length a certain Dove was revealed to me, nearer and nearer to the Dove, and opened my bosom to her, and she flitted into it, and closed her wings there- and there she nestles now and forever, keeping my heart warm, and renewing my life with her own.

So now I begin to understand why I was imprisoned so many years in this lonely chamber, and why I could never break through the viewless bolts and bars; for if I had sooner made my escape into the world, I should have grown hard and rough, and been covered with earthly dust, and my heart would have become callous by rude encounters with the multitude; so that I should have been all unfit to shelter a heavenly Dove in my arms. But living in solitude till the fulness of time was come, I still kept the dew of my youth and the freshness of my heart, and had these to offer to my Dove.”

- Nathaniel Hawthorne, in a letter addressed to his fiancée
(emphasis mine)




i want to fall for someone with such purity and unencumbered emotion.

it finally finally snowed today!!
much to the delight of my inner child :-)))

thank you everyone for loving me.

i think odaiba is the most beautiful place in japan
i love wide areas where the sky and sea never ends…

rainbow bridge!
the symbol and pride of tokyo bay~

odaiba ferris wheel!

odaiba is now one of my favourite places in japan
it’s amazing how reclaimed land can be made to look like a paradise…
next time im going im going at night… the scenery and lights are even more stunning then…

and they have a little hongkong area in Decks
where they sell like dimsum and 小笼包 and 饺子
and thats when i found out how chinese restaurants cheat japanese lol

seriously the chinese food in japan is disgusting
it’s artificial and tastes totally different from the real thing
so yeah dont eat it..