Non Illegitimus Carborundum
ive emerged through this chaotic whirlpool of emotions, barely unscathed. no matter what how and why it happened, there is no point in reliving and questioning it now because the indisputable fact is that it HAS happened and therefore, the only reaction appropriate would be to deal with the aftermath. as much as i want to scream in someones face this was fcking forced on me!!!!, the ball is now undeniably in my court and i have to decide which way to go now. i am stronger than this than ever before and i can either make the choice to kill myself or to live with it. most importantly, ABOVE everything else, i cannot let this experience make me.
because this is only one single distressing experience out of many other ordeals i will face in the future (i am sure of it).
and because the last thing i want is for the bastard to control me till the day i die.
